Relationship 2.0

Because it didn't take long till I realised that I have feelings for a girl. She kinda helped me to get over with. To work it out the break up. And in March this year we met for the first time. And it was amazing. We had such a good time. And yes, we also kissed for the first time. But...I didn't had any butterflies in my stomach. I was nervous, yes. But mostly because I'm pretty shy when I meet someone for the first time. I ignored the non-butterflies in my stomach and told myself that she's good for me. And my life. And for my mental health. And at first she was! Indeed. Until we had our first "serious" fight. At that moment I felt like a little child. Of course I'm not. But she was thinking that she had to teach me a lesson. To educate me. And I kinda hated her for the first time. We cleared everything. But I still felt odd. And still no butterflies. Even though we hold hands and kissed and stuff..
21.9.15 22:18


And now I know it was good to keep it as a secret. Because he broke up. Kinda. Actually he just ignored me and that's it. I don't know why. We had good times, for sure. He made me really feel so special. He accepted me the way I am. And I know that's not easy. Because I'm pretty complicated. He made me little presents. Everything felt so good. But I think he didn't like it that I wanted to keep our relationship for us. After the break didn't take me long to throw everything away he gave me.Except the Mamma Mia dvd. In the was the best relationship I had so far.
20.9.15 12:29

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